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Name: Erika
Location: Los Angeles, California, United States
Birthday: 12/13/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: I love music a lot
Expertise: too many to put down
Occupation: Sales
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
9/11/2005
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| WELL HERE WE ARE AGAIN SPILLING MY THOUGHT AND FEELING ON HERE..........SO I HAVE BEEN THINKIN A LOT LATELY I AHVE TO SAY THAT SHIT IS STILL THE SAME AND I DONT KNOW FEEL LIKE I AM IN THIS BIG ASS FUKEN DARK HOLE AND THERE IS NO ESCAPE TO IT ALL SHIT I NEED TO GET IT TOGETHER HERE I NEED A BETTER JOB AND I NEED TO KEEP GOING FOWARD I PRAY ALL THE TIME TO GOD TO HELP ME GET THRU I KNOW THAT PPL ALWAYS SAY THAT GOD DOESNT PUT THINGS ON UR PLATE THAT U CANT HANDLE MAN I AM HOPING THAT THEY ARE RIGHT. CUZ I HAVE ALOT ON THIS PLATE AND IT FEELIS LIKE IT S ABOUT TO GIVE OUT ON ME AND I PRAYING THAT IT DOESNT.....I HAVE NO IDEA IF I WILL EVER FIND LOVE AND I HOPE I DO I NEED SOME LOVE I NEED SOMEONE TO GIVE ME WHAT I GIVE OUT ALL THE TIME. SO INTERESTING I WAS THINKIN BOUT DOMINIQUE AND HOW AT TIMES I MISS HIM AND TO BE HONEST I DO BUT I DONT......I DONT MISS HOW MY LIFE WAS SO UNHAPPY AND SAD AND FEELING SO FUCKEN UPSIDE DOWN WHEN I WAS WITH HIM I MISS WHEN HE LOVED ME AND THAT ALL I DONT HAVE MANY FOND MEMORIES I HAVE SO MANY BAD ONE INSTEAD. I THINK I ONLY REMINICE CUZ THERE IS NO ONE TO GIVE ME MORE MEMORIES OF WHAT LOVE CAN BE. I THINK THAT WHEN IT HAPPENEDS I WILL PROBABLY NEVER THINK OF HIMA ND HE WILL BE SOME ONE IN THE FAR PAST. SOME REASON I DONT THINK THAT WE CAN EVER REALY BE COO AGAIN TOO MUCH HURT TOO MANY STUPID THINGS THAT WERE SAID AND DONE............I THANK GOD THAT I HAVE A WONDERFUL DAUGHTER THAT HE GAVE ME AND I GUESS THAT WAS THE PURPOSE OF US BEING TOGETHER BUT FROM THERE I DONT SEE ANYTHING ELSE AND THAT IS SAD TO ME AND IT DOES HURT BUT I FEEK LIKE IT WAS SOMETHING THAT HAD TO HAPPEN. CUZ I NEEDED TO LEARN THAT SHIT HAPPENES FOR A REASON. SO ANYWAYS MOVIN ON SHIT I NEED A NEW JOB...........I HOPE THAT GOD BLESSES ME I SURE NEED IT SO VERY BADLY  | | |
| WELL HERE I AM FEELING LONELY AND CONFUSED AS EVER! I WANT TO FEEL ALIVE I HATE THAT I HAVE NO ONE TO CUDDLE WITH AND BE WITH CALL AND TALK TO U!!!!!!!!!I HAVE NO ONE I HAVE VERY FEW FRIENDS AND I BARELY TALK TO THE OPOSITE SEX I HAVE NO LOVE INTEREST AND I HAVE TO SAY THAT I FEEL SO SAD ABOUT THAT I HAVE A BABY DADDY WHO CAN HONESTLY GIVE TO SHITS ABOUT ME!!!!!!! GOD WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT KNOW I AM 23 YEARS OLD I HAVE NO LIFE HOW CAN THIS BE I FEEL SO HOPELESS AND I HONESTLY FEEL LIKE CRYING....................... I DONT FEEL LIKE NO ONE IN MY FAMILY UNDERSTANDS ME I HATE LIVING WITH MY SISTER CUZ I REALLY WANT TO HAVE A PLACE OF MY OWN BUT I CANT AFORD IT............I LOVE HER BUT I REALLY WOULD LIKE TO GIVE HER AND HER HUBBY THERE OWN SPACE AND PRIVACY AND I NEED MY OWN!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL SO SAD.....................AND I CANT LET ANYTHING OUT AT ALL AND THAT HURTS ME SO MUCH...................I FEEL SO ALONE...................I FEEL LOST.............I DONT KNOW WHO I AM AND WHO I WANT TO BE I HAVE NO CLUE...................PLUS I AM SO SCARED I DONT KNOW WHY I AM SO SCARED ALL I KNOW IS THAT I AM AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO GET RID OF THAT FEELING AT ALL............I WANT TO BREATH AND FEEL LOVED AND NOT JUST ANY KINDA OF LOVE I WANT TO FEEL WANTED CARED FOR RESPECTED I GUESS ALL THE THINGS THAT PEOPLE MY AGE ARE FEELING I WANT TO BE CAREFREE WITH OUT A CARE IN THIS WHOLE DAMN WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE OUT THERE LIVING LIFE AND HER I AM YOUNG AND SINGLE BUT SO AFARID OF IT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | | |
| WELL HERE I AM AT HOME AND I AM SO FREAKIN BORED!!!!!!!!! I SAW A HORRIBLE CAR CRASH EARLEY AND MAN THAT SHIT WAS SCAREY! ON ANOTHER NOTE I FEEL LIKE I AM FINALLY REALLY OVER DOMINIQUE I MEAN I STILL REMINICE AT TIMES BUT I JUST DONT FEEL THE SAME FOR HIM AT ALL !!!!!!!! I REALLY CANT STAND HIM AND I KNOW THAT SOUNDS FUCKED UP BUT HEY HE IS FUCKED UP AND I DONT THINK HE IS GONNA CHANGE ANYTIME SOON....IN ANY POINT I REALLY WOULD LIKE TO FIND SOME ONE THAT I CAN REALLY RELATE TO AND LOVE... ANYWAYS IMA GO FOR NOW BUT I WILL WRITE SOON! | | |
| WOW I HAVENT BEEN HERE IN SUCH A LONG TIME AND TO BE HONEST ITS NOT LIKE SOME ONE COMES ON HERE TO SEE MY PAGE ANYWAYS. WELL I HAVEN BEEN THRU A LOT THESE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS OR SHOULD I SAY YEARS I FEEL SO SAD AND DEPRESSED AND STEESED THE FUCK OUT AND I HATE THAT SHIT ALWAYS SEEMS TO GO DOWN HILL INSTEAD OF UP!!!!!! WHATR KINDA SHIT IS THAT?! WORK HAS ME SO STRESSED THE FUCK OUT I HATE MY JOB AT THIS FUCKEN POINT DONT GET ME WRONG I AM SO THANK FULL THAT I HAVE A JOB BECAUSE I REALY NEED IT BUT DAMN WHAT THE FUCK I HATE THIS BASTERED AT MY JOB DUDE HE IS A LIL BITCH!!!!! ALWASY SNOOPIN AND BEING A STRAIGTHT UP SNITCH BOUT EVERYTHING ESPECIALLY SINCE THEY MADE THE DICK HEAD A MANAGER IM LIKE WTF WHY IS IT THAT THEY NEVER APRECIATE THE GOOD EMPLOYEES?! I DONT GET THAT SHIT AT ALL AND U KOW I AM JUST SO TIERED OVERALL WITH SHIT I FEEL SO FREAKIN BITTER WITH EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO YELL AND SCREAM AND SAY EVRYTHING THAT i HAVE BOTTELED UP INSIDE OF ME. i AM SO SICK OF BEING LONELY i DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO I HAVE NEVER BEEN THE TYPE OF GIRL TO BE ALL OVER RANDOM DUDES THAT SHIT AINT ME AT ALL AND I HATE THAT THERE ARE BO GOOD DECENT MEN LEFT IN THIS FREAKIN WORLD!!!!!! ANYWAYS I WILL WRITE LATER PEACE OUT! | | |
| WOW I HAVENT BEEN ON HERE IN A LONG WHILE! WELL WHERE SHOULD I START..........LETS SEE WELL I GOT A NEW CAR! THIS DUMB CHICK RAMMED MY CAR SO I WAS WITH OUT A CRA FOR A WHILE! WHICH REALLY SUCKED ASS A LOT! MAN IM STILL AT CINGULAR AND I HAVE TO SAY I AM STARTIUNG TO REALLY HATE IT A LOT! AND YEAH THAT ABOUT IT ME AND DOMINIQUE STILL DONT GET A LONG! AND I AM STILL SINGLE WANTING TO GET ME A MNA BUT I JUST SEEM TO HAVE BAD LUCK WITH THE SO CALLED MEN THAT I COME ACROSS! ANYWAYS I AM MAINLY ON MYSPACE NOW SO YEAH! MY LIFE AT THIS POINT IS PRETTY BORING BUT I AM TRYING TO GIVE IT A LIL SPICE! | | |
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